I wish.

I wish we were talking instead of sleeping,

I wish I could tell you everything,

But everything I want to tell you seems made up in some way,

I wish I could cry to you about all my problems,

Then maybe we could get solutions,

I wish I was pretty enough for you,

Then you'd show me off to all your friends,

I wish you were close,

Then I'd get lost in your hug and I'd feel whole again because you'd squeeze back my thousand pieces,

I wish I could believe everything I read on fairy tales,

But life has shown me otherwise,

I wish I could tell you how I feel about you,

My dreams my insecurities,

My fears my objectives,

But currently my brain is messed up and my emotions are like faulty traffic lights,

I'm confusing everyone around me,I know.

Then again I wouldn't want to burden you with my bull crap,

You're a king,you deserve royalty,

Not the pains and tears of some random girl.

To some extent I wish I could revoke this but to some extent I need you to feel me.

But will you?